My name is Lilly, i think I’m around 8-10 years old or maybe older… Who knows?

I stopped counting the years the day i began counting the days, the hours and then the minutes.

Being nobody’s baby hurts. Us, dogs, we don’t cry, we suffer in silence. Nature made us this way. As a sick joke made us also loyal and unable to hold grudges or hate. Our purpose is to unconditionally love our Humans. My purpose was to be someone’s family, to love my mom with my entire being, to always be there for her, as she was there for me. My purpose was to belong to someone…

She didn’t have much, but she shared everything she had with me. For me, it was everything and that’s how unconditional love feels like to me. I was once a happy girl and imagined it’ll always be like this.

One day, i was separated from my mom. She fell into a deep sleep and never woke up from it. People say she was old, but i never saw her as being old, she was the most beautiful human being, with the warmest soul, kindest eyes and the most gentle touch.

I continued to live in the same empty yard for a while, our neighbors fed me from time to time and made sure i don’t starve. They are good people, but i wish they would adopt me and take me in as part of their family. I’m nothing without a Human i can call mom or dad again.

I miss the good old days… I miss my mom, I miss the old me, i used to be able to smile with my eyes, but i can’t do that anymore. I can’t fake what i don’t feel.

The house i spent the most beautiful moments of my life in is being sold. I’m not allowed to stay in the yard anymore. Everyone has turned their backs on me. I’m nobody. I failed my purpose.

Sometimes i run aimlessly on the streets, I’m looking for something, only i don’t know what that something is.

Not all humans are kind, some of them throw stones at me and call me ugly, some make me go away with broomsticks, others are passing by and look at me with disgust.

I’m not wanted… I wonder why was i born if nobody wants me. The only one who ever wanted me left me all alone in this world. I don’t want to be alone anymore. I need someone to live for.